Sunday, January 25, 2009

pathetic


I wanted in.
I just wanted us to live again.
For years I thought we've shared this secret
that we would be wonderful in the world.
I don't know exactly how,
but just the possibility
kept me hoping.
How pathetic is that?
So stupid.
To put all your hopes in a promise
that was never made.
I know what i want
i found his place, I am just fine.
Married, no kids, it should be enough.
It is for me. And he's right; we were
never special or
destined for anything at all.

he said


Don't worry,
I can't be bothered!
You're not worth the trouble
it would take to hit you!
You're not worth the powder
it would take to blow you up.
You are an empty, empty,
hollow shell of a man.
I mean, what the hell are you doing
in my house if you hate me so much?
Why the hell are you married to me?
What the hell are you doing carrying my love?
I mean, why didn't you just get rid of it
when you had the chance?
Because listen to me,
listen to me,
I got news for you - I wish to God that you had!

clarification


So now I'm crazy
because I don't love you, right?
Is that the point?

No! Wrong!
You're not crazy,
and you do love me.
That's the point.

But I don't. I hate you.
You were just some boy
who made me laugh
at a party once,
and now I loathe
the sight of you.
In fact,
if you come any closer,
if you touch me or anything,
I think I'll scream.

tell me



Tell me
the truth
remember that?

We used to live by it.
And you know
what's so good about the truth?
Everyone knows what it is
however long they've lived
without it.
No one forgets
the truth
they just
get better at lying

Petrified




She was working alone,
and visibly weakening
with every line.
Before the end of the first act
the audience could tell
as well as the Players
that she’d lost her grip,
and soon
they were all embarrassed
for her.
She had begun
to alternate between
false theatrical gestures
and a white-knuckled immobility;
she was carrying her shoulders
high and square,
and despite her heavy make-up
you could see the warmth
of humiliation rising
in her face
and neck.