my heart

without the usual sex
you will shut me out of your life

i can give you back that illusion
willingly and slowly

first my eyes, then my hands, then
my precious
tongue

second, my thighs, then my toes
my nipples

third, i can compromise
with what is inside my brain
i can change my
point of view

that i can be sometimes
a dog, or even a fly
but never a creature with wings
since you hate
flight

you can have everything in me
even my shadow

but there is something that i can
not give you
my heart

i've been looking for it too for years now
it's gone.