pathetic

I wanted in.
I just wanted us to live again.
For years I thought we've shared this secret
that we would be wonderful in the world.
I don't know exactly how,
but just the possibility
kept me hoping.
How pathetic is that?
So stupid.
To put all your hopes in a promise
that was never made.
I know what i want
i found his place, I am just fine.
Married, no kids, it should be enough.
It is for me. And he's right; we were
never special or
destined for anything at all.